But I Must

I have wrapped the practice of the red-robed around me
Sitting for many hours, trying to find my peace within
Letting go of all that binds me, practicing mindfulness
Learning compassion, understanding, tolerance and love
For this is what I must, this is what we must do, all
For there is no path to peace: peace is the path alone

I try to let go of anger, misunderstanding and ego
I try, although it is hard, so hard, so deeply inbred
That is comes pouring out like lava from a volcano
When moments of madness disturb my serenity
Moments of violence, terror, horror, destruction
Soul destroying forever, absolutely soul destroying

Because I do not know what to do, I do not know
My upbringing has taught me to avenge, ruthlessly
To make right the wrong of the evil, the purely bad
I seek not justice, I seek vengeance, unmercifully
Honestly hoping to tenfold the pain they caused
Yes, honestly, this is my wish, my desire, my need

Resulting in me behaving as they do, barbarians
Of absolutely no worth, useless to all forms of life
My tears of frustration match my tears of sorrow
As I head back to my tree, sit and begin to breath
To find a way to forgive, to spread love and peace
But it is hard, it is so hard, too hard. But I must

I cannot fight for peace; nobody can fight for peace
For we have to practice it, beginning within
Then spreading it, one person at a time
With love and true compassion, true love
I want to fight, but I am learning, albeit slowly
I cannot fight for peace; I can stand for peace

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